I am so behind on everything in life right now I don’t even know what to do. Working full time has me a complete mess most of the time and being a busy person in general doesn’t mix very well with that. I feel like I can’t keep up with anything. I’m trying desperately to teach myself that it’s okay to say “no” to things sometimes. It’s so hard to do when I just want to do all the things! Experience life- be adventurous- you know, live a little. Ha. Because 5/7 days I’m behind a desk staring at a computer screen while trying not to scream because I have absolutely no idea when I’ll actually start to get what I’m doing.
Anywho, it’s a new year and I wasn’t that excited about it this time. I didn’t know why at first but then I realized it’s because I wasn’t content with where I am in life right now (contentment isn’t all about money y’all). I don’t know if I’m the only one like this (probably not) but I’m always waiting for the “next big thing”.
I’m waiting to have a baby,
I’m looking forward to having an actual house to make pretty and “nest” in,
I’m definitely looking forward to our anniversary trip to St. John in May (eep!)
But that’s the thing, we’re always looking somewhere else. Why can’t I just enjoy where God has me right now?
Someone who has three kids and can’t get a second to herself to save her life is probably looking at my life thinking
“She has it so good right now. Doesn’t she know I’d love to have her job to get away from all this madness”?!
Or an Empty Nester who’s children are grown up sees a young mom in a store juggling a pack of diapers and a bag of cheerios for her daughter while talking to her husband on the phone (because he wants to know what’s for dinner (can I get an AMEN?! haha!)) all at the same time- and thinks,
“I miss having my children around and taking care of them. I wish I was juggling that pack of diapers and cheerios right now..”
And it just sort of hit me this morning that i’m missing out on the here and now because my mind is always in the future. I’m missing out on enjoying things that one day i’ll look back on with envy. Isn’t that funny how that works? Ugh. The struggle. It’s for real.
So I’m challenging myself this year to be more focused on today and where God has me RIGHT NOW. To be intentional with my time and my thoughts- we only have one life and I want to make it the best one I can possibly make it.
Cheers to being content with life friends.
Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.